Sean's first fly (Autism)

          So many times I convince myself to try to bring my 3y11m (he is going to be 4 nxt month) autistic son, Sean, to expose to the outside world..stay at home is not going to help... One of the idea is to fly, let's start with short trip.... Earlier preparation is very necessary..I read abt airlines at develop countries, they hv more services and programs for autistic children compare to Malaysia, including earlier visitation from departure room to the plane, that's mean inside the plane...I hope in future Malaysia also has this kind of services and programs... After yesterday's experience with Sean, I really feel for other autistic children, It's not easy for them...besides, ppl who handle this special kids must hv strong preparation in physical and mental, strong courage and patience... Somehow, at 1st I almost gv up that make me burst into tears, but I don't want to let my weakness control me...with God's help, I put myself together to fight him back....in my heart keep saying, "I'm sorry sean, it's mommy's turn to win this time, ok?".....I won....finally......thanks to my family and friends for all the support, that's mean a lot to me...

          The 1st fly experience is not always perfect...our journey back to hometown was fun, excited, happy, sad, angry, shocked, confused, panicked, shouted, screamed n cried...all these feelings and actions combined together...

          I carried Sean till in front of the plane's door, as Shenna followed us behind...Then I held his hand to enter the plane, only a few steps closer... HE STOPPED, (my heart starts racing).. Suddenly he started to scream (I knew it!!), I pulled him hard as we entered the plane...he struggled hard too, trying to escape...rolling and kicking on the floor, crying, shouting n screaming whatever u wanna call it...I was panicked, so many things kept playing on my mind...WHAT IF they kick us out of the plane?WHAT IF the flight delay bcoz of Sean?HOW do I handle him for another 50 min if he continue like this?..without realizing it, my tears fall...damn it!!!...a few trials to get him to the seat, failed...everybody started to feel annoying...the final trial, I took out his tab to trick him...as he sitted on my lap, I held him hard and sang his lullaby song tru his ear n massage his back gently, he stopped crying, feel calmer as b4....finally, I won...;))..I surrendered all so that he could sit comfortablely on my lap till the end of the journey, he refused to sit alone..nvr mind dear, as long as he stays calm, that's all matter. .... As for me, I still feel so silly to cry, shy shy shy...damn it!!

The whole journey he stayed calm..I will nvr 4gt this experience that taught me a lot......thank God for being with us....Amen..;))

Just arrived at kch international airport, Sean with his sister, Shenna. Sean looks cool in the pic..:)